the one that got away..

Joel is possibly the most amazing guy i’ve ever met.. 

never has anyone gone as far as making sure I have enough juice, enough antibiotics, and enough comfort in my own pillows and bed..

He loves me.. I KNOW HE DOES…

either way, our friendship is incredibly amazing..

in no way POSSIBLE can i escape you. and not in the form of seeing you at work or at the mall.. but mentally. shit i could ever deal with you, shit only i went through with you, i cant do with no one other than you. so david and i are done. its very immature to end a relationship over the first argument, but that was enough for me to realize it was deja vu. and i realized something, that bullshit, those arguments, are only things i could only put up with, with you..

ofcourse I love you still.. but ofcourse.. not pursuing you ever again..

Can’t imagine life without her..

Trust. Something I didn’t think I could do. And it’s something you slowly give me..

“and this time we’re gonna do it right, alright!!”

On my path to creating new memories and moving forward, I’m haunted with the memory of you.. I cant run away from the fact i still love you..